OutKast - Ms. Jackson.
I’ve been sent into a deep depression post Splendour in the Grass and as a result I have been playing Outkast all day. Before I saw them play live I assumed my favourite song that they were going to play would be Hey Ya but it was this one. I’ve had it on repeat since.
But now that I’ve looked up the lyrics the more and more I play it, the more and more I feel down. I never realised the story beneath it was so sad.
Severely wishing I was back here. Sitting on this bus, watching the snow outside and far from home.I leave for Splendour in the morning which is in the complete other direction.
I cannot hold off any longer. I am sending these away tomorrow for processing. I really shouldn’t have spent my money on this but I just have to see my photos.
And yes, I will be blogging more about my day-to-day life on here. This is a warning.
Last night on the drive home I went past his house and thought how easy it would have been to crash at his house that night if we were still together.
I think about him every day.
Today I saw a quote; “never give up on something you can’t go a day without thinking about” and I thought of him and how this is just a hopeless situation. I wish I didn’t have to give up.
"Even then, as teenagers, we tried to put the pieces together. We still can't."
-The Virgin Suicides (1999)
Back from my snow trip and I’m missing it like crazy. This morning I tried to replicate the big breakfasts that we had so I went to maccas, got a big bag of food, drove to Braye Park and ate in the car in my jammies.
And it was the furthest I’ve been from home on my own. Even though every day I was just dying to come back, now that I’m home I hate it.
I need a bigger adventure and a new life.